For I know my offense; my sin is always before me. Psalm 51:3
Let’s try to dissect David’s statement. What did he mean when he said about knowing his offense, and his sin is always before me?
When you sin, you know you sinned. You can deny it before your family and friends. You can keep it to yourself. Nobody might know it or not. Or nobody don’t care if you did it or not. Or maybe people may not come up to you to confront you about your wrongdoings. But between you and God, you know you have sinned. There is no denying the fact you step out of bounds in your relationship with the loving Father.
So when you know you sinned, your sin will always gives you this conviction that you have done it. You always see it before you. It will bug you. Is it guilt or shame? It’s up to you. When you look in the mirror, you see the sin you did. When you are before your friends or family, you have this wall, your sin, in relating with them. It’s just not the same stuff. Your sin may not be publicly exposed yet your mindset in your eyes see that sin in front of you.
Most importantly, when seen is before you and when you come in God’s presence, there’s something in between you and God. Sin. This is will turn out to be good or bad.
Bad because if your heart is hard to repent from the sin, the gap before you and God stays. You can’t see God fully as the sin blocks you. You know the sin gives you a certain distance from God yet you allow it to remain.
Good because if you are confessing the sin to God, you are asking for forgiveness from Him, you are exposing the sin to the merciful Lord. You are not denying it. You are being true to your weakness. You are saying you can’t do it alone, asking for his strength. You are being confident of his mercy. You are allowing him to renew you and restore you.
So, today, dissect your heart. Examine your life. You know your offenses. You see your sins before you. Decide to confess and repent.
With God and you, don’t let come sin come in between.