But Ananias replied, “Lord, I have heard from many sources about this man, what evil things he has done to your holy ones in Jerusalem. And here he has authority from the chief priests to imprison all who call upon your name.” But the Lord said to him, “Go, for this man is a chosen instrument of mine to carry my name before Gentiles, kings, and Israelites, and I will show him what he will have to suffer for my name.” So Ananias went and entered the house. Acts 9:13-17a
Being in a community of single professionals, leadership transition was an important matter since the lives of the members are in transition. They get married. They move from one job to another. The are transferred from one branch of their company to another. Most of the time, its the time for the current leader to step down so someone may take his or her place.
So many who are in position or who are responsible in collaborating to choose the next leader among a pool act like Ananiases. They debate the bad sides of the potential leaders. Just like Ananias, they tell about their past not so good experiences with the next would be leaders. They speak of the weaknesses of the people being considered to step up and lead the flock.
You may have undergone this route, Fhey. Brothers and sisters have scrutinized you. Lingkod members may have screened your personality. Leaders may have argued with one another that you maybe the one or not the one. Or you yourself has put yourself through this. You looked at your past sins, why be the branch moderator? You reminded of yourself about your character loopholes, why choose to lead? You are comfortable where you are, so why shake the house? Come to think of it, Paul might have thought this way, why lead the church I used to persecute, why build the church I used to destroy?
Ananias’ realization is this — he is not the one choosing who will be the one but God. This is God’s plan, not Ananias’ and not Paul’s. Ananias responded and Paul responded. God chooses who are the instruments, the instruments make themselves available for God’s work.
The people who chose you to be their moderator did not really choose you. You did not, too. God did. No matter what your past is, he chose you. No matter what your personality is, God chose you. You grew in the community satisfied being on the background but God chose you to take the front line. You are afraid your skills may not be enough but God chose you. You responded to his call and become one with his plan. You make yourself available for his kingdom. God does not look at your skills, he does not evaluate by your preferences, God chose you because he has a plan for you to become his powerful instrument.
Allow the Ananiases to pray for you. Let them lay their hands on you to strengthen you and to remove the scales blocking your vision. Ananias did that to Paul. One of Paul’s strong verse is this, “I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:14. This was Paul’s direction ever since Damascus. Press on. Give your all to the call. Eyes on the goal. Loving lavishly and serving selflessly.
You can do this for God will empower you. Just always remember one thing, Fhey It Forward.